My Defining Moment with Lukas Rossi

I have so many defining moments with Lukas Rossi so I'll give you the first one & the most important cause it was the start of four plus years of me actually finding the strength to live the way I wanted, thanks to Lukas!

A year before I ever knew he was walking this planet, I had lost my mother to a ten year, horrible battle with cancer. Five months after her death we found out my father had terminal lung cancer that was to far spread and big for any surgeries or treatments. So now not only do I have a father grieving the lost of his wife of 46 years but now also a man looking at the same kind of brutal death his beloved had.

I was dealing with my own grief & looking at losing my dad when I couldn't yet deal with the loss of my mother.

For a year I was the walking dead. I drove my dad from doctor to doctor trying to find some help, some hope and I went to work at my job. Its all I did. I was a crying, depressed, over stressed, grieving mess.
When I was home I was in bed wrapped in covers feeling too lost to do anything else. I was unable to help myself and my husband was at a loss at what to do to help me.

One night he crept into the bedroom where I was buried in my bed and told me that a show was starting that had Tommy Lee in it. I'm a huge music lover and I love me some Tommy Lee! Been a fan of his since he started making music with Motley Crue!

Knowing I was a mess of a wife, I got out of the bed for my husband, dragging all my covers & pillows with me. I laid down on the couch to watch cocooned in my blankets.

The camera panned over all the singers on this show called, Rockstar Supernova that were in running to front Tommy Lee's new band, Supernova and I sat up suddenly on the couch and announced to my husband that I liked the guy up front, pointing out Lukas Rossi. I hadn't heard him sing, talk or move for that matter but something grabbed me about him. He was sitting there radiating!

As the weeks went by I curled up on the couch for the show with less and less blankets with me waiting to see what Lukas would sing that week! When he sang Don't Panic from Coldplay his voice took my breath and touched me like I hadn't felt from an artist before. This was different. HE was different!

A few weeks later he sang, Creep and when he hit the notes in that song and took it to a level no one but him could take it, I found myself standing and sobbing uncontrollably! He had broken through and touched my soul with that voice of his and let me get out what I was keeping inside. All my sorrow over my moms death came rushing out of me.

It was like finally finding something that understood and for me his voice, his music would become a friend. One that was there 24/7 for however long I needed with no questions asked. I play a song of his and its like my best friend has just came and sat down beside me to hold my hand. To me that is what music is. Music heals.

Whenever I had a day I could not live through I'd put on his music.
When I was feeling overwhelmed, I'd put on his music.
When I sat at yet another doctors office as the doc was telling me and my dad that there was nothing he could do either to help my dad, Lukas' music played in my head.
When I went to cry at my mom's grave and talk to her I took my ipod so I could listen to Lukas and not be there alone with my grief.

The next four, almost five years has been filled with me traveling to see him perform and each time he is on stage I feel that overwhelming healing touch of his voice that I experienced when he sang Creep! I've been lucky enough to not only meet this man, but also sit down to a meal with him and I discovered the warm light radiating from him I saw on the TV when I had given up and given into my grief was breathtaking in person! Its hard to explain it. Its a peaceful feeling of belonging somewhere. Like you found where in this world you fit. Lukas Rossi makes you feel like your perfect just the way you are.

I was so busy in my travels, promoting him, drowning myself in his music and making lifelong friendships with others that had also fallen in love with his voice that something was happening that I did not realize. I was healing. Healing from my mothers death and learning to cope with losing my father. I was also gaining personal strength by traveling alone to see Lukas. I would NEVER of traveled by myself before but the draw his music and the people I have met that I now call my Rossi Family was so powerful I would walk past my fears to get there, wherever it was he was playing at!

His music is not only a friend to me that I leaned on when I could not stand, his lyrics are a source of strength for me that I pull on daily to keep me on my feet. Without his music, the friendship he and his wife have shown me or the Rossi Family he has brought to into my life, I don't know HOW I would of climbed out of the deep darkness I was in. Its because of him I have done many things for the first time! I stopped counting these firsts years ago when they reached 34! I'm sure if I had kept counting them I'd be well over 100! Many many defining moments and experiences that have shaped me into the person I am today that never would of happened if not for Lukas!

But for this one defining moment, the first one that has taken me all this time to explain, is when I heard Lukas Rossi sing Creep on a reality show in 2006 and I sucked in a breath and breathed for the first time. Ever.

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